Tenth Sunday in Ordinary Time
June 5, 2005
Readings: Hosea 6: 3-6; Romans 4:18-25; Matthew 9: 9-13
Father J.A. Loftus, S.J.
Was Matthew just bored with his job as a tax collector? Was he, perhaps, bored with his whole life? He probably had a wife and family at home. What about them? How does one just pick-up and walk away from one's life? And why would one want to do it?
The same thing happens to many of the other disciples too. Think of Peter and Andrew, James and John, and the others. They all seem to just walk away from their lives to follow this Jesus. Why? Was Jesus that attractive to them? What was it exactly he offered them?
While I do not have a simple answer to these questions (no one really does), learning more about this complex psychology could be very interesting, and instructive for you and me. We too are invited to follow him; we too have complex lives that defy easy resolution. Even though I bet there are some days you would love to just walk away from your present life, you are not about to do it. Are you? Is there any one whom you would follow so quickly and so completely? Who might that person be? And why would you follow?
I am sure we have all probably seen very attractive people (perhaps even just on the street). And, at least on occasion, we may have thought to ourselves: "Gee, I wish he would ask me to follow him." That's not what I'm talking about. That's a playful fantasy most have. Or is it just a fantasy? Could it reveal something much deeper about our own dreams and hopes, our real longings in life?
Granted that we usually think that Matthew and his friends had a distinct advantage over us; they encountered the real, living, breathing, fleshy Jesus of Nazareth. But do you think that was enough to make them follow so quickly? Could Jesus have been that attractive in the flesh? I doubt it. But Jesus does seem to have had an uncanny ability to instantly tap into other people's hopes and wishes and dreams. I think it might have been that ability that Jesus was able to communicate instantaneously to those whom he encountered.
Jesus seems to have let people glimpse in an instant what they could become, who they really were already, and where they had really come from. He cuts across all the distinctions and fears of cherished religions (including his own faith tradition); he invites everyone into the party (including the strangest, the slowest, and the sleaziest); he displays no regard for class, age, gender, political affiliation, or any other pseudo-important distinction. Somehow Jesus instinctively and instantaneously seems to communicate the entire Promise of his God.
Jesus' "aura" (or whatever) speaks wordlessly what St. Paul says today. Remember Abraham: a 100 year old man with a barren wife who finds himself exhausted and disillusioned by life. And yet who still hears, however faintly, a Promise made to him and his descendants. He does not waver, Paul tells us; he follows.
And Jesus seems to incarnate in an instant the legacy of the great prophets of Israel. The Hosea who says today: "I only desire steadfast love and not sacrifice, the knowledge of God rather than burnt offerings." Jesus' whole life says: there are no hoops to jump through to know God. Just come, and follow me!
Maybe that message is what captures Matthew and the others. Maybe they could see in the passing of this strange man from Nazareth all that they ever dreamed could be in their own lives: the freedom, the hope, the love. Maybe they could glimpse that invitation in Jesus. And they heard an invitation to become more truly themselves than they had ever thought possible. Now that might be enough to explain the strange psychology behind just walking away so easily.
Helen Keller once said: "One can never consent to creep when one feels an impulse to soar." Matthew felt that impulse, that invitation to soar. Can we?
Matthew and the others allowed themselves to be seized by a promise of freedom, and finally by a promise of love. Following Jesus must have seemed so impractical; their whole lives were at stake after all. But somehow they sensed that nothing could be more practical than falling in love and being in love. That's finally what Jesus offered them. The righteous need not apply; but sinners are always welcome. You need not even be healthy (in mind, body, or spirit); we are all ill.
Hear the words of the much beloved former General Superior of the Jesuits, Fr. Pedro Arrupe, who once said:
"Nothing is more practical than finding God, that is, than falling in love in a quite absolute, final way. What you are in love with, what seizes your imagination will affect everything. It will decide what will get you out of bed in the morning, what you will do with your evenings, how you spend your weekend, what you read, what you know, what breaks your heart, and what amazes you with joy and gratitude. Fall in love, stay in love, and it will decide everything."
Jesus is still alive, still has flesh and blood, still has a body (oddly enough-look around). And Jesus still says to you as he once said to Matthew: Follow me. Forget about your burnt offerings to any false gods, and remember the true God's Promise: be free-fall in love, stay in love and it will decide everything.
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